when i said...
i'm willing to use my life as a experiment...
i meant it...
jus tt my time is up...
can't wait anymore...
at the same time...
i know or others around me shd have know...
i'm up to something...
the metal piece shot right into my head...
near to the centre of my brain...
if it dosen't remove...
it'll have infection...
if undergo surgery...
the rate is 30%....
rmb tt tym i said i was trying to fixed the overhead crane back to the track...
and the carrige slipped off?
yeah...
when it slipped off...
it hit onto the stopper...
a hardened piece of metal...
as it was harden to 78hrb...
it is brittle as ofcourse...
and the metal chip shot into my head...
and yeah...
this was how it caused...
mhmm...
2 daez ago...
i guess charmian reach spore alr...
so how's hk? nice?

okay...
dun crap anymore...

IN LIFE...
MANY PEOPLE GO IN AND OUT OF YOUR LIFE...
BUT WHEN THEY ENTER...
WHO ARE YOU GONNA KEEP THEM BY YOUR SIDE?
WHEN THEY ARE GONE...
DO YOU REGRET LETTING THEM OFF?
OR WILL YOU GONNA KEEP THEM BY YOUR SIDE?
OKAY...
LOOK AROUND YOU NOW...
DO YOU STILL RECOGNISE THE FRIENDS
BESIDE YOU NOW AS YOU JUS KNOW THEM IN THE BEGINNING?
OR ISIT...
THEY DON'T MATTER TO YOU MUCH NW ANYMORE...?


I'M JOINNING MY FRIEND WHO DIED IN MOTORBIKE ACCIDENT...
JUN JIE...
OH...
UNCLE HENDRY... WHO DIED OF BRAIN CANCER...
MY GRANDAD...
OKAY... ETC AND ETC...

okay... this is one of the pre-post msg...
look out for those on 14th feb,
22th may,
31th may,
19th june,
23th dec

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On this fateful dae...
it determines weather am i gonna make it or nt...
nt tt i want death...
but death found me...
3 more hours to go...
if somewhere ltr
i guess i'll lost the courage...
the pain is in my head nw...
pressing against the skull...
it's damn pain...
seriously... it's lyk the brain is expanding...
and ur skull is shrinking at the same time...
3 hrs more and Alex dun have to suffer anymore...
3 hrs to go...

okay...
last nite...
went to cwp to catch a movie...
again...
it's normal for me...
i dun ask friends out...
i jus used to watch movie alone...
couple seat...
popcorn combo...
but only one seat fill...

watched IP MAN...
actually it's nt IP MAN
it's eep mun...
a cantonese name
ye wen...
okay...
nt too bad...
i prefer chinese and cantonese movies whereas you prefer english...
maybe tt proves we're nt suitable frm the start...
and many more to list...
it kinda makes me tears when the female lead actress said tis to ye wen in the movie...
"i dosen't matter where we go...
as long as we're together as a family..."

okay...
if can can make it...
i may nt be blogging here...
maybe elsewhere...
for those close friends may see it coming in the wae...
but for some if i make it...
ask frm me my url...

okay
take care...
and
bye bye...

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time is passing very fast...
how i wish for a stop...
okay...
i'm running out of time...
last tym...
i keep thinking of death is the only wae out...
nw...
when i face death...
how i wish i can buy sometime and wait for your return...
it's too late...
some words are unspoken...

sometym...
it's too difficult to sae...
let nature take it's course bah...
i've nth much to sae anymore...

if i can make it...
i'll continue to post here...
orelse...
i may have a pre-post post here...
look out for it...
it won't be so soon...

i'm afraid to face tml...

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Hey guys!

strike 4D again...
went to cwp to get some grocery tis mrn...
then...
when my parents werre paying for the stuffs...
i go n buy 4D
i told my parents tt afew set of digits will be going to strike...
so...
borrow 80 bucks from my parents cause i didn't bring my wallet...
mhmm..
bought
4669
the truck tt i love to drive
cause i modified it...(turbo charger)
7783
my mum, my dad and my hp last four digit...
our hp number is lyk
my dad
xxxx7783
my mum
****7783
mine
^^^^7783
and yeah...
2750...
the biggest truck tt u can find in my dad's factory...
the biggest crane mount on it...
but i still dunnoe hw to drive it yet...
cause it's SCANIA
and the problem with it is tt
u need to know when to change gear...
10 sets of gears...
1 reverse...
1 4 by 4
1 control
and 7 speed gears...
beside it
there are still high low gear in every gear...
so...
it's abit leh chet...
and if u dunnoe hw to drive...
the transmission box may burst...
compared to others
lyk Nissan UD
7 speed gears...
1 reverse...
mitshibishi Fuso....
also
7 speed gears...
1 reverse...
okay...
last of all...
1092...
my grandad's tablet number again...
yeah...
so...
todae strike 2750...
buy 20 bucks ibet...

okay...
aft tt...
went to book my tickets...
24th dec departing 6am...
coming back on 27th dec evening time...
i dunnoe if i can live to see tt dae anot...
it's okay...
trying to be optismistic...
yeah...
living to the fullest...
leaves no regret...
yeah!

only thing is tt i can't still stop worrying for ctyx...
can't refrain myself from thinking of her...
it's jus a little too sweet memory to forget...
if i can restart everything...
i'll still chose to get to know u...
nvr regret knowing u...
maybe some memories maybe soured...
some bitter...
some sweet...
but...
it'll always gonna stay with me forever...
rmb u ask me abt do i believe in afterlife?
i rather believe it...
believing tt it'll come true tt i'll meet u in my afterlife...
so...
see u next life if i can't make it...
2312...
let's listen to tis song...
yah...
shall stop here alr...
21/12
2 more daes...

曲名：输了你赢了世界又如何 歌手：优客李林 专辑：精选优客李林

朦胧之间 彷佛我又看见你的脸
依然带着淡淡忧愁的双眼 忽隐忽现
就当全是一场梦 不必掩饰我的错
无奈的哭笑不必找牵强的理由
就让她日日夜夜刺痛我胸口
让我眼神没有焦点
泪水模糊我的视线
输了你 赢了世界又如何
你曾渴望的梦 我想我永远不会懂
我失去你 赢了一切却依然如此冷清
有谁又能让我倾心 除了你
你我之间 难道没有剩下一点点
一点曾经刻苦铭心的眷恋 让你挂念
我只能说如今我已无处可躲
当我默默黯然回首
当我看尽潮起潮落
输了你 赢了世界又如何
你曾渴望的梦 我想我永远不会懂
我失去你 赢了一切却依然如此冷清
有谁又能让我倾心 除了你

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yo! back here again...
live!

okay... for my holidae...
will be going overseas soon...
flying off...
going to hk on 24th dec...
but i'm afraid i might nt get to see that dae...
tt's the main concern...
i wanna go back to my great grand dad's house...
maybe it's impossible to bring u along anymore...
you dun belong to me anymore...
or rather nt even from the start...
i miss the daez when i was young....
my dad brought me there...
we take a boat ride from tanjiong pinan to kusu island...
we climbed the trees
and stayed on the trees for afew daez...
where my dad carry a short gun and me with a air rifle...
we go hunting...
wild boars...
deer...
it's a heaven for us...
where ah chuan, dad and me drank the blood from the goat's throat...
wah...
abit sinful...
but the feeling is warm...
especially when the blood flows in our body...
it's warm...
damn hot...
tt is why i'm nt afraid of cold...
when the native saw us with our mouth full of blood...
they ran away from us...
haha...
they thought we were devils risen from hell...
haha...
see their scared face which makes me wanna laugh...
but tt was the past...
heaven't go back there for a long tym...
i'm looking forward to it...
i like the feeling when
i was carrying the gun...
trying to aim at animals...
especially wild boars (moutain pigs)...
they're fierce...
serious..
damn fierce...
especially the male leader of the troop...
they charge lyk they're nt afraid of death...
i mus learn from them...

wah...
jus saw the 4D...
it's a strike...
my hp last 4 number...
7783
bought ibet...
but abit little...
abt 200 bucks?
yeah...
but atleast dunhav anything...
haiz...
shd buy 6969
my club jersey number 69...
haiz...
nvm...

got to go off soon...
gonna go n bath...

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yo!yo!yo!

back here...
this maybe the last few post here...
cause my time maybe up...
in my office nw...
trying to complete as much things as possible...
haiz...
3 years...it's abt to be up...
2312.... this dates leaves me too much memories....
too much for me for my this life...
3 more daes...
it's abt to up...
trying to put my last 3 daez to the most meaningful days in my life ever...
i may nt acomplish much in life...
but i guess i've done my part as a child of my parents...
although maybe somedaes i may nt be filial at times... i'm sorry...

78hrs left...
look back to the past...
2312 2004 met victoria..
2312 2007 met charmian..
2312 2008 who knows.....

somewhere along this road...
i lost my soul...

okay... in this year...
i've accomplish my parent and my dream to get my butt into sinapore poly...
i've accomplish to get some project for the company...
i've made lots of friends in SP...

maybe this life...
i hate myself for chossing the wrong route when i was 10?
join some stupid street gangs...
being a smoker...
and smoker make me on the losing end...

in my office nw...
having my lunch nw...
and it's alr 3pm...
haha...
busy with some machining...
and blogging while having lunch...

okay..
gonna have a quick luch and continue my work...
gotta go to my private workshop nw...
bye bye!
maybe back later...

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I guess...
我想着一段感情与友情
你找已厌倦了。。。
也许我们也该在这一刻画下句号。。。
毕竟，天下没有不散的宴席。。。
去年的这一我们还是很好的朋友。。。
还在东方亲人地。。。
今年，在这时刻，我只能闭上眼睛，试着去找回你过往的温柔。。。
怨我生命终止有个愿望。。。
我希望。。。
就让时间停留在去年今日吧。。。。
可能，我很快就不会再你生边。。。
愿你能好好照顾自己。。。
记得。。。
在上海也好，
在珠海也好，
在香港也好，
或在世界末个角落。。。
要好好在你父母生变。。。
我不能像上一次在上海时。。。
你迷了路。。。
我既然站在一个冷漠的角落。。。
看顾者你。。。
不让任和不幸发生在你生上。。。
就像守护天使般的再看顾你。。。

也许可能我含笑九泉或在天堂能为你微笑。。。
能看到你好好过你的幸福生活。。。
只要他能给你，你所谓的幸福。。。
在多痛，再多苦。。。
我，张炜名。。。无所谓。。。

可能今生我先比你找走一步。。。
其往来生，在于你相见。。。

也许是前世我欠你。。。
今生我想我也换你了吧。。。
来世。。。让我们不前不还的在一起。。。


when u dreamt abt the venice trip...
i know in "argaration" it can't be true anymore...
cause...
dream are always different from reality...
i know i can't be anything more than wat use to be nw...(jus as you said before)
nvr knew that things will turn out to be like this...
i'm sorry...
i need to leave earlier...
i gotta go home...
i had my run...
i'm exhausted
sorry...

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jus another boring update here...
dry road ahead....

okay...
ALEX jus had a haircut...
so guys....
dun recognise hym by his long frindge anymore...
Now
it's a short and neat hairstyle...
it's lyk i feel lyk i'm back in my pri sch daze...

it's about a year he last change his hairstyle...
a year...
365 daes...
8760 hours...
525600 mins...
31536000 secs...

and i'm proudly to sae i waste 120 secs to calculate...

why does Alex wanna change his hairstlye?
can anyone ans?

okay...
he ask someone yesterdae...
is he really that scarry?
mhmm...
guess wat the other person reply?

The other person: why?
Alex : errm.. nth.. jus asking..
The other person: errm... maybe your hair...
Alex : orh...
Alex : a unique one...
The other person: ?
Alex : nth
The other person: lol.

yah...
this was part of the convo...
mhmm...
maybe i shall reveal a secret abt ALEX...
he lyk to speak with words tt may have 2 or more meanings...
so
try to read inbetween the lines...
decode wat he's trying to sae...

oh yah...
for my holidae...
i'll be away from s'pore...
maybe i can't be away for too long...
maybe it'll be 4 daes 3 nites...

let's see...
if we still can meet in another foreign land again...

okay...
let's read the lyric of the song (爱上你是一个错)
let the lyrics do the talking for me...

*人生有许多难关要过　
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中註定情海中颠簸

為你我付出这麼的多　
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因為我爱你就像那
飞蛾扑向火

请你告诉我
爱上你是一个错

别让我
失魂落魄著了魔

解开我的迷惑　
收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做

请你告诉我
爱上你是一个错

别让我
漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多　
心也早已伤透

我已不想
再為谁
去等候 wo~wo~

Repeat *

请你告诉我
爱上你是一个错

别让我
失魂落魄著了魔

解开我的迷惑　
收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做

请你告诉我
爱上你是一个错

别让我
漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多　
心也早已伤透

我已不想
再為谁
去等候 wo~oh~wo~oh~oh~

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Past few daez had been busy with my dad's business...
and some of my minor projects...
trying beri hard to come out with a quotation for the sch's mod machine...
going in and out of jurong island...
i drove to sch yesterdae to submit the form...
i guess afew of the lecturers and friends saw me driving...
okay... i admit... i dun have a lisence...
but i'll get it soon...
and real soon!

for todae...
i'm taking a rest....
cause ALEX IS CRIPPLED
he lost a limb...

for detail...
as hym personally...

for the past few daes...
i've been thinking and trying to find out...
who am i in my past life?
i felt tt i'm some kind of killer?
a man that always take revenge..
i've this feeling tt i want to buy a gun and kill all that had try to compete and cross me...
haha...
that is bullshit...
cause....
how in the world is alex gonna kill...
but...
killing with a gun is too easy...
they should suffer first...
stuff hard object into their shit hole...
haha...
let their body infest with larvae....
with lots of holes...
let their brain infest with tubeworms and eggs...
(visit Pei Ling Blog's for description)

after lots of disgusting desription...
it's enough...
Alex is so kind....
so innocent...
how would he do that...
haha...

okay...
for now i should take a good rest untill i'm completely healed...
listen to this song and read the lyrics...

如果這是我愛你最好的距離蘇永康

作詞：林淑華 作曲：吳旭文 編曲：涂惠元/徐德昌

一天寄一張　沒有地址的明信片給妳
今天在東京　明天在巴黎
只想告訴妳　我身不由己學不會分離
不斷尋找　逐漸模糊的回憶

一天送一束　沒有署名的玫瑰給妳
假裝是妳我還在一起
在沒有妳的國度裡　好好專心的想妳
不斷逃避　我的心就不會死去

如果這是我愛妳最好的距離
我願意永遠的離開妳
如果這是妳給我最溫柔的暗示
我可以永遠的忘了妳

如果這是我愛妳最好的距離
我願意欺騙我自己離開妳
如果這是妳給我最溫柔的等待
我可以孤單的走下去

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had my ITOE lesson todae...
as usual...
was late again for class...
but i didn't get any scolding...
my friends get jealous of me...
todae hui ming and daniel came to me...
they ask me...
Daniel & hui ming :Alex... why u everytym late nvr get scolding har?
I, Me, Myself: err... maybe i too handsome ... he get so "turn on" when he see me... and dun bother to scold me... haha... joking...
Daniel: eh... dun lyk tis leh.. tell us leh...
I, me, myself: maybe i'm abit more experience with those machine bah...
Hui Ming: eh... why everytym u complete your project much more faster than us arh?
Daniel: ya har... who teach u?
I, me, myself: err... this.. i need to thank my dad for buying over the precision engrg co. for me... i learnt from the workers there(lao jiao)..
daniel & hui ming: no wonder lah.. help us do leh...

okay...
help them, peck yun and lee sheng do too...
went off earliest again...
had luch with Ah Ken...
Hui Ming...
Lionel...
Soe Hein...
okay...
that is abit squeezy...

okay... after that...
had a private chit-chat session with ah ken...
sorry hui ming...
left u waiting...
after tt went to moberly...
karokae again...
but...
too bad...
close untill 2pm...
so went to my club...
slack in the club...
untill 2pm...
went to moberly again...
saw timothy...
his friends were lyk talking abt me...
the tall guy with long frindge...
so when timothy called me and they were lyk jus below my nose...
haha...
they're damn paiseh...
sorry to scare u guys... i may look abit firece...
when i was there...
saw a pair of lesbian...
i was lyk...
abit attracted to the butch(i wonder if it was spelled correctly)
she has the pair of acttractive eyes...
and it's lyk it'll capture souls of broken hearted...
she kept looking at me in morberly...
maybe i wear untill abit wierd todae...
(ralph lauren's cotton strip pants, G2000 formal white with thin black strips shirt and a pair of hush puppies leather shoes)
but too bad...
she's lesbian...
i wonder why ppl became lesbian...
is it they're being hurt in serious relation...
tt's why turn to the same sex to find true love?
maybe i shd be gay...
haha..

sang with hui ming again...
daniel joined us abit later...
todae singing session sux...
cannot hit the key...
and when i hit the high key...
can't bring it down when i switch the songs...
hui ming todae also C.M.I.
both of us had sore throat...
and so...
who's fucking idea was it to go sing when both of us have sore throat?
opps... sry... my words are abit too corse...
after that went to W1113 to see mr suhai mi or tsunami...
haha...
fill in the form...
and went off...
i went home and hui ming went for his C++ Programming...
cause he failed it last sem and forward modue tis sem...
and C++ programing is torturing...
went home and rest...

i'm mentally exhausted...
jus let the title and lyrics do the talking...

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Thursday, December 4, 2008

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Finally
test are over for this term...
but dun forget next term...
i guess i'll flunk todae's paper...
cause there's a siao char bor...(opps)
sitting beside me in the exam...
she keep on laughing...
i was lyk damn lethargic and trying my very best to keep myself awake...
and her laughter is lyk damn powerfull...
it interupt all telephone lines...
the sound waves send through the air will seriously kill...
so i didn't managed to complete the paper...
i've lyk practiced untill damn fast alr...
but... her presence... no hope liao...
Lim Hui Ming is u saw this post...
dunn keep laughing...
be prepared...
heng heng... end yr exam she sit beside you...
haha...
even the myamar bros can't stand her...
oh... yah...
btw...
she's nt from my class...
and myamar bros are refering to
Kyi lah win
and
soe hein
it's holidae after tml...
and tml i got ITOE...
it's damn fun...

mhmm...
as for my holidae's plan...
shall reveal it maybe someother tyms...

todae...
i reached home at 11 plus... i skipped my maths...
haha... abit sinful... but i was lyk damn tired...
even if i go for maths...
i only slp in tt class...
i reached home...
watched a movie...

a hong kong film...
okay lah....
quite nice...

btw...
i've add in some musics/songs on tis blog....
they're dance tracks...
listen... and see weather do u understand the notes...
2 rumba songs
1 tango
1 paso doble
enjoy them!
got to go soon...
heaven't bath...

maybe...
shd we remain lyk this forever?
without any contact...
walking out of ur world quietly...

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back here ...
time check...
1:20am...
practicing auto computer aided drawing...
in Admiralty Mtr MAC
With Mr or Rather Ms Kenny Teo Yu Xuan...
(my gay partner)
jus joking...

my exam is lyk 7 hrs ltr...
i wonder why i always lyk to
carry buddha leg last min...
(direct translation)
i guess maybe it's the wae of my life..
jus lyk when i was in Robotics club when i was in my secondary sch
we always do last min work...
working our butt 36 hrs before the competition
but...
always we'll bring back the championship...
weather shd it be competition of
I.R.O.C. in korea
W.R.O. in thailand
N.J.R.C. in singapore
or even the competition in U.S. Orleando
thinking back
sec sch life is lyk more fun than poly life lah...
haqha...
nt much worry...
subjects are lyk damn easy...
memorise and vomit all out in exam...
then aft tt all forgotten again...
haha...
these few daes are lyk damn difficult to pass...

Anywae...
guys...
ALEX IS STEPPING ON THE OTHER STAGE OF LIFE
currently i'm making a enormous decision...
should i or should i not...
To be or not to be... it's up to Alex and partner...
(Alex's theory)
should i give up anot....
guys please tell me now...
text in, e-mail in, call in, msn in or any wae of comunication...

okay..
for the below post is for someone special... you know who am i refering to
okay...
for the past few daez...
i didn't chat with you
not that i dun want to
but i don't have the courage anymore...
please tell me...
is there anything that i can do to make you stay?
or is it nothing else between us...
as i said before...
i'm willing to use my life as a experiment...
jus msn me even tho i'm not online or appearing offline...

okay...
need to concentrade on auto cad alr...
bye!

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Tuesday, December 2, 2008

0 comments @ 2.12.08

okay...
i guess it's tym to
HIT ON THE RESET BUTTON
after so much things i've gone through...
so much trouble i've brought to myself...
so much of F*** up things i've done...
so much of F*** up attitude...
so much of F*** up stuffs that is advoid-able...
i guess it's tym for me
ALEX CHONG WEI MING
to hit on the reset button and start afresh...
but...
can he really be re-born again?

okay...
i should appologize to Clarine over here...
i'm sorry...
i've broke your heart...
but seriously...
i can't accept anyone...
seriously...
maybe i'll pay you back in next life...

to Queenie...
i'm sorry to had done that to you...
i'm sorry...
i jus can't do it...
you're pretty...
but...

to Yi han...
sorry...
i'm so so so sorry...
don't ask me why...
i'm just so sorry...

Marie...
you're a nice gal...
and yeah...
you shd deserve better...
sorry...

Joyce...
you're beautiful...
but...
sorry again...

Su Su...
you shd had know you shouldn't have done that...
you knew the result...

Sharon...
it's time for you to look out for other guys
rather than me...
we're jus not suitable...
sorry...

to all gals out there...
you may see me as a playboy..
actually i'm not...
but just that i can't accept anyone nw...
not that i wanna do this...
but...
it's too late now...
too late...
just too late...

if time allow...
i would turn back the time and go into the past
whereby i was still in the arms of my mum and jus...
sleep soundly...
nvr wake up at all...

okay
TIME CHECK: 2:55am
and i'm in Admiralty MAC with Kenny Teo Yu Xuan (K.T.Y.X.)
studying the fucking
MECHANICS and AUTO C.A.D.
i'm having the test later at 1pm...
i seriously hate MECHANICS
cause
lots of calculations...
and long workings...
jus a simple mistake...
and bye bye go to your marks...
one question is abt 20% of the paper...
so guess how difficult is it to scrape through...
for AUTO C.A.D.
it's better for me as
i'm in this engineering trade from young...
and i love that...
i'll be laughing at myself if i fail...
haha

zai jian bu shi zhen de bu zai jian mian,
er shi you yuan shi, zai xiang jian
ji de you ge sha zi young yuan zai wei ni shou hou...

wo wah bei ni ji...
nei men xiong xing o...
o yuen yi yao yat sen zhoi si yan
nuo yao at tien...
qin zhun o xiu sam zhen de oi nei...

okay...
gotta stay focus on my revision...
my batt gonna go flat alr...
bye peep!

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