Monday, January 28, 2008
0 comments @ 28.1.08

yO!!

kinda careless for the past few daes
last thursdae i dropped my phone in jurong island
At Banyan Phase 3
Afraid to lose the sweet memories i had with (CTYX)
i activate all Offsite workers to go in to Banyan phase 3
to join in the search for my phone
and i end up being reprimanded by my dad
but... it's worth it...
to buy a new phone isn't a prob for me
but i can't buy back the smses i had with u...
not only that
i had been dependent on my phone to take down notes
abt you...
the things you likes n hates
i read through the smses u send me again n again...
i've nvr deleted any smses u send me...
i tot i was strong...
nvr had i tot...
i need u to be my side 24/7
on sat... i was on the verge of breakdown...
i may appear beri cool on the outside...
but who knows wat will happen next?
i was lucky to have u by my side when ever i need u...
you help me maintain my "calmness"
i may get into some violence on sat...
last nite i can't sleep...
i toss and turn in my bed
i can't sleep...
dunnoe why...
i was tinking abt the math test that u will be taking todae...
it's kinda wierd...
i dunnoe do u still rmb the Dolphin Necklace i promised u...
maybe i'll take a pic of it n put it on my msn display pic...
i hope somedae i can give it to you personally...

gtg soon...
bye

Please don't let the music stop...


Wednesday, January 23, 2008
0 comments @ 23.1.08

Errm........
nth much actually.....
but rmb one mth ago....
on 23 dec...
i finally lift my lips
to chat with u....
haha....

errm...
if one dae in ur 70's
u'r walking along the beach during sunset's....
tinkin of memories in u had in ur life....
sweets n bitter....
wat will u have in mind???
is it a blank piece of paper?
or will u tink of sumone who u lyk before?
or will u be regretting wat have u nt done?

ending here........

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Friday, January 18, 2008
0 comments @ 18.1.08

errm... jus wanna share a story...
it may seems unrealistic... but tt's abt me...
a unrealistic person trying to meet real life...
it goes like this:

Close ur eyes and imagine...
u're on a tour to some parts of the world...
u met tis guy... u may lyk hym at first...
(love at first sight)
when the trip ended both of you still exchanges lots of smses
untill some part of life
that both of you was kinda drifting apart when u're busy....
he still smses u everydae...
date u out...
but u can't meet up with hym because u're busy...
soon... he stops chatting with you...
you start to miss hym...
you suggested to meet up with hym
you can still contact hym...
but when u went to look for hym...
you found out something strange...
you would'nt even believe your eyes...
he's dead long ago...
you went to his grave to see it for yourself....
you try to sms hym again...
but there isn't any reply anymore...

tt's the story line only...
hoping tt someone who is intrested in the story pls contact me...
hoping tt tis could be film into a movie...
so Directors please call me...
haha
kinda lame...
ending here...

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Sunday, January 13, 2008
0 comments @ 13.1.08

yoz,

Getting better tis few daes...
haha... back to the crazy me again...
haha... things finally get better....
but it may nt have a ending tt i desire...
errm... i norm sleep a couple of hrs per dae..
tis few daes it was all scarry dreams..
only the dae before
i dreamt of u again..
the dream maybe ridiculous
but it seems so true
i dreamt tt ur fav sports is ice skatin or snow skiing..
i brought u to dunnoe where...
then we play for a couple of hrs...
u said tt u're hungry...
n u missed cheese cake or dunnoe wat ice-cream cake frm swensens
we have it there...
at first u was kinda shy n dun dare to order much...
but...
i kept asking u to order as i'm giv u a treat..
when the bill came...
it was abt SGD 150++
haha
u are really a great eater...
haha
as we go for some shopping...
u still can continue having some finger foods
haha... gracious....a great appetite
haha...
money isn't a prob...
but i cherish the time with you...
i dun mind u spent all my money...
but...
i got u by my side
but....
i guess it won't happen...

U're goin for your sec3 camp tml...
hope you have a great time over there
haha...
i was actually thinking of being a delivery boy
n deliver the chocs for you...
haha... unrealistic...
tt's all about me...
UNREALISTIC....

Todae i go to long house at thomson
to help out my friend in his roasted delighted n stuffs
i help hym till 3pm
i also saw afew actor over there...
then i went to funan digital IT mall...
saw my ex-collgue
haha...
they're wrking beri hard...
struggling to push up their sales
but too bad...
i heaven't really plan the overview of my office...
haha...
went to Orchard...
u were there too but...
i didn't purposely go n see u..
i was in sloopy state...
a pair of shoes...
polo tee n bermudas...
i jus went to Takashimaya to sae hi to my friends wrkin there
went to Orchard Hotel S'pore to see hw's my ex-collegue
n i went to Bugis....
i realised i short of no clothes
n i end up buying for my bro
haha...

i went to causeway point...
then go home n end up here, blogging

i'll miss u during ur sec 3 camp...
ending here...

byez...

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Thursday, January 10, 2008
0 comments @ 10.1.08

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This few daes i... kinda ... feeling down...
yar... life is full of ups n downs...
but nt to the extend tt it brought me to heaven high
n hell low...

to learn that you are upset...
i'm upset too...
if it is abt my friendster photo...
i'll delete it away...

the second reason is because....
u'r my spark plug in my engine...
u're my life...
u're my 精神粮食。。。
without u...
my world came crushing down...

the third reason
i'm too pressurized...
WORKLOAD!!!!!!
i can't even take a dae off to celebrate my friend's b'dae
tis few daes
i'm meeting govt officials
it's kinda stressful to even hear of their name...
it makes me wanna dig a hole somewhere in the earth to hide
i had fainted a few tyms tis few daes...
lost my appetite...
i can't even eat even the best trotters laid infront of me
jus...

I think I had lost the ability to keep myself warm in the cold anymore...
when i jus came out frm my bathroom
or even when a breeze blew at me
i start to shiver...
i switched off the air con when i'm in the car...
nt even pulling dwn an inch of window...

i hope u'll feel better soon...

sometyms i hope i ain't myself...

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Friday, January 4, 2008
0 comments @ 4.1.08

I kinda hate tis feeling
a feeling that i went through 3 yrs ago...

tis two daes...
i lock myself in my office
i isolate myself
when my dad came in
i jus pretent to be asleep with my shades on

when i'm forced to repair machines in jurong island
i kinda burnt the whole engine...
i almost lose my life todae
i was trying to repair the 220 KVA Generator todae
i actually forgot to pluck off the battery switch...
and the stupid BANGALAA start the machine
it was lucky of me that i jumped off in time
but...
i was shocked by electric of the battery again...
it was the second time in tis 10 daes

God is really fooling me..

i really thank you for the period of love
i get your definition of love
do you think i'm out of my mind...
to tell you truely...
i'm nt...
the smses is to make you feel better...
i noe it's jus a few daes that we know each other...
but how could i forget someone that i love so deeply...
but always remember there's always a me that is waiting silently
in a dark n cold corner...

how should i meet with fate the next 3 yrs again?
come to me when u're hurt...
when you are feeling down...

Reassure that i'll always be there for you...

Please don't let the music stop...


Thursday, January 3, 2008
0 comments @ 3.1.08

Sorry....I am really Sorry...

I dun mean to lie to you....
you hate SMOKERS...
i Knew it...

During the trip in China...
i noticed it...
when i saw you coming out of the lift with a smoker behind u
you were gasping for air...

From then on...
i had already quit smoking...
the smoker you noe of me had already dead..
he no longer exist now...

i'm sorry that i didn't tell you from the begining
i'm afraid to tell u from the begining is because
i am afraid to lose you...

To know you
it wasn't easy...
认识你。。。
我需要很多的缘分。。。

在茫茫人海中。。。
只有一个你,也是只有一个我。。。
何况我们是在中国相见的。。。
中国有那么大。。。
单单太湖就竹芋四个新加坡那么大。。。
要让两个陌生人相见和不是天大的缘分。。。
我请求你别让费这,我们用百年或甚至是千年修来的缘。。。
我在向你保整,我不会再骗你了。。。
我会一五一十得像你述说每件事。。。
原谅我吧!

if you (Charmian) would happen to see this post of mine...
Please reply...
without you...
i'm really lost...
i can't even work todae ....
i'm really hang...

I'm SORRY!!!!

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